I definitely subscribe to this method sometimes, the idea that if you’re feeling shitty then making yourself fancier looking will help at least a little. Not the only method I’m using right now (the double bourbon method has never let me down), but I still have to wait for this nail polish to dry and I promised mostly myself that I would get back into blogging.
It has been a long week, not just because of the events that I’m not going to go into detail about, but also because those events have really brought out the anxious side of me. It’s been a minute since I’ve actually had to figure out what to take to get to functioning in the face of panic attacks.
(spoiler: it’s L-glutamine. L-glutamine is pretty awesome. I asked Camille for a magical “calm down and become prepared for all of this” pill and I think that L-glutamine is the closest thing I’ve ever taken to that.)
This has also meant an abrupt stop to work. That annoys me, but I do understand that if your hands are shaking too much to hold a pen it’s completely acceptable to not write.
I got a telegram today. Eventually I figured out who it was from, but for a while it was a mystery. Mystery or no, I really appreciated it. It was short but beautiful.
Really like it.
I guess that as much as the terrible parts weren’t cancelled out, there were enough good parts to not give up.